me

i feel bad because i have been neglecting my blog lately. but now that i am on my second round of steroid dose pack in the past 2 weeks and also had a shot of cortisone today too, i feel kinda wired. this poison ivy is kicking my butt.

sorry for the all lower case but it is easier for me and hey, it's my blog so i can do what i want. and this blog post is about me and why and how i am going to do what i want.

i am proud to be 35. 35 is great. i normally would have thought this kinda on the old side but i am proud because with mid-30s comes a great sense of freedom to be who you are - i have always been one who walks to the beat of my own drum but i think in my 20s and even early 30s i was a bit self contained to a certain extent. i think i struggled with what is kinda "in" and what i actually like myself - i say this in reference to things like fashion and home decorating. well, dangit i am tired of trying to keep up with the joneses - whoever they are. the jones' are boring. the jones' need to get some style. i want to challenge any and everyone who reads this blog full of typos and mis-spelled words to be who you are! if you like Britney Spears then TURN IT UP! if you like tight rolled jeans like you wore in the early 90s then flaunt it! don't go buy some high dollar jeans that you are going to feel guilty for buying - because when you think about how much you just spent on them you realize that same amount could have fed a whole family in Ethiopa for 3 months. don't suffer paying that stinkin' car payment every month just cause you are embarrassed to roll up in your paid for clunker. clunkers ROCK! ROCK that clunker and give it a name for crying out loud! think about all the money you will save on that car payment while driving Bessie. Bessie is cool and she has character. she has been with you thru thick and thin and you dont want to toss her to the side just because she has some chipped paint and a couple hundred thousand miles. Bessie has loyalty to you some new sassy car is not going to have! don't say to yourself, "oh my kids are going to be embarrassed for me to take them to school in Bessie." NO they aren't! Kids don't know the difference in Bessie and new sassy cars. all they know is Bessie is who they are used to. Kids don't like change any more than the next guy does. You know how kids learn to be embarassed and make fun of things like that? they learn it from their PARENTS. yes, guys. me and you. we teach kids these things and then they go to school and make a comment about Bessie to a friend and it spreads like wild fire - kinda like how bad news travels fast. Good news never travels very fast. did you ever notice that? like how people love to stop and look at wrecks - people thrive off that.

anyway, wear your jordache(sure i didnt spell that right but you know you know what i am talking about) jeans with pride. drive Bessie like she is the best looking car in the Delta. oh and home decorations....here is where i teeter back and forth and back and forth. i tend to like COLOR - lots of it. SURPRISE, SURPRISE. i teeter b/c lots of color is not necessarily IN - the Jones' probably only have mustard colored walls and they think they are really going all out with the mustard. but if you really love purple, then paint a room purple. you will be surprised how much that color brings life to your home and makes you happy. same thing with furniture. i love finding old things and giving them new life. you will be surprised how much cool stuff you can find for SUPER cheap. and my house - anyone who has ever been to my 100 year old house probably thought to themselves -"i can't believe she bought that dump." but hey, here again, it is old and i wanted to bring it new life and have always wanted an old house. now that i have it i realize i may have bitten off a wee bit more than i can chew. but i am biting off just little tiny bits at a time - as much as we can pay for as we go. so anyway, if i have to suffer with the OLD, OLDNESS of my house for a while to get it the way i want then so be it. i want to be proud of my house. it is me or me in progress and i should not be ashamed. don't be ashamed.

the one thing i have learned MOST (and i think i said it before) from taking pics the past few months is we ALL have way more in common than we think. no matter who you are or where you are you worry what others think to a certain extent. i realize some of us worry more than others but bottom line - we all worry some. SO let's just let it all hang loose for the world to see. BE PROUD, STAND TALL cause YOU ROCK!!!